Saturday, August 14, 2010

Wedding plans and weight loss..sound fun?

I went to hallmark the other day and looked at annoucement and such while my child was cooed and awwed by the hallmark people. I swear my child gets stopped every where! but thats the price a pay for making a adorable baby. ANYWAYSSS As i was saying I was looking at announcements and trying to figure out what I like. I want something simple with a little splash. So i have come up with some idea and actually found 4 I like in the 5 HUGE books I looked through. I know i am picky lol. And sense Michael decided he did not care I am up to it all by myself. I also headed to davids bridal and finally saw the front of the dress I have been dying to see and of course I love it. But all this in a way makes me very sad. I hate that my family (expecially my sister) is not here to help with all the planning. It feels weird doing it all by myself. But I do have some great help from my friends down here as well as my besty amber From cali =] I just wish Everyone lived closer to me.

In other news I need to start losing some serious weight so that I can look super hot for my wedding and trying on dress. Even though I want to lose weight (BAD) I am having a hard time getting motavated. I want to do it but the temptaions have been killing me. I think what I am going to try to do Is get a little note book and start writing down everything I eat to try and stay motavated. plus I am getting this little exercise machine from my babysitter. I think that will help to. I hope that once I get in a routine that I can focus and actually start losing weight. I am looking to lose around 40 pounds. Its not that hard right???!!!

Friday, August 6, 2010

ME time

So on wensday I had a little time to myself. I got off work and the babysitter still Had Isaac. I have never been by myself and done nothing for almost 2 years now. I always have someone with me or Isaac my little man. So Intially I called some friend but they were all busy doing there own stuff. soI dicided I would just go and get some coffee from startbucks and walk around. I did do this for a bit and wound up going to the Cinabistro which is a movie theater. And not just ANY movie theater I might say but the best one I have ever been to. the seats could fit 2 people. The service was great and it was nice to just sit there by myself and relax I laughed and it was just amazing. I love ME time!

Thursday, July 29, 2010


I hate my knee. it hurts and it is preventing me from doing pretty much everything. why you ask???!!! because I slipped at work and I hurt it. I had to fill out an incident report and everything. Plus I had to get xrays which apparently showed that nothing was wrong. But why would me knee hurt if there was nothing wrong with it. Michael says its probably just a bad sprang. who knows ={ I have to go back to the doctor in 4 weeks.which 2 of those I will be out of work for. What a pain in the ass right!! about the only good thing that came out of this is that I get to spend 2 wonderful weeks with my adorable son! I love spending time with him.

In other news I just came back from my therapist appointment. I love going to these appointment to just vent and get everything I want out. But today she felt the need to talk about my ex Ryan. This subject is a very sore one. And I know you are suppose to talk about these things so that you can move on from it but it does not mean I have to like it. the whole thing just makes me want to punch things. I wish that I could just forget the whole thing you know. but it seems to follow me wherever I go!! I mean come on its been 2 years now. Does it ever end??

On a brighter note Isaac stood up by himself for a whole 5 second. it was very exciting. I can't believe he will be 1 in just 2 months time. I cant wait for him to start walking and everything. Its gonna be fun! well I am off to sit around and do nothing...oh joy

Saturday, July 24, 2010


About 3 days ago I am taking my break and Matt(one of the managers) tells me the top dog wants to talk to me on the phone. So i go in there and she starts telling me how great my personality and moral is and how the owners just loves me. And then proceeds to tell me I have been promoted to Hospitality manager and that I will be getting a 50 cent raise and a set schedual. I am feeling very good right now. I love that My happyness has gotten me somewhere but I am also sad that My happyness is rare that I got noticed so easly. When did people start being so mean to one another. or for that matter hating there job so much. I know that people say they work at McDonalds because its a job but I mean for 6 years??!!! then why dont you find something you love doing rather then something you hate and it reflects on other people. the job is not that hard. It fun,fast,and easy. It makes me sad that customer service has gone down so much latley.

In Isaac news. He is doing so good with eating real foods. He loves bananas and had mac and cheese the other day. He has 2 teeth coming in as well and has a mean bit. dont stick your hand in there lol. He also is pulling up on pretty much everything he can. I believe he will start cruising soon if not walking. He is growing up so fast. I miss the times when I could just hold him. Time went to fast.But thats life right??

Thursday, July 15, 2010

growing like a weed.

So Yesterday I feed Isaac his first little meal. I was very scared to get him started on real food because I am deathly afriad that he will choke. Even though I know CPR I am just terrified that I will freeze and be to scared to save him. But to my surprise( well I knew what would happen) he ate it like a perfect champ! He loved it and was so patient with it. I think he no longer needs baby food=[ I am so proud of him but I am also so sad that he is growing up. I wonder how this year could have gone so fast. I wanted him to stay "ity bitty" forever!!!!And to make it worse today he has been pulling himself up on everything. He is gonna start cruzing soon then walking. I cant wait but at the same time I cant imagine him doing it...He is still my little boy.

Second thing on my excitment list. We have picked a wedding date August 18th 2011. I cant wait! Yesterday we went and bought my little wedding book and started(and finished) our wedding budget. I really never knew how much goes into a wedding and I have already had one. But a cheap one LMAO. I am hoping to go down 3 sizes before My wedding day to be able to fit in my wedding dress. Well the one I want anyway...the only t hing that Is missing is that my sister wont be here. Its times Like these I wish I were home. But I know all I have to do is call her and Ill feel better.

Monday, July 12, 2010

Brave New World.

So today I went and applied for a community college. I still have alot of work to do with school and everything But I am glad I actually went down there and started it. I really want to better my life. I want My children to be Proud of the mother they have. I know it sound like a cliche' but its true. I also want to actually do something that I love. A passion of mine. (which is photography). I want to be able to be independent with my life in a small way. But I am scared. I am scared I will fail..again. that I wont be able to keep up and just be letting myself and my child down.

On a brighter note. I love my new job. And I remember back in the day I would have told you I would never work at a fast food restraunt but I love working at McDonalds. I love the fast pace of it, I love the people, and most of all I love that I can be happy and myself! they love me there although sometimes I get made fun off for being to happy but It doesnt bother me. I figure there jealous cause there not happy all the time. I love the person I am when I am at work. I love to make people happy and excited to see me. I truely is a blessing!Although I hate being away from my son...I feel like I will be missing out on stuff. But I know when I come home and see him that he will smile and come to me for me to come and pick him up and it makes it so much more exciting...I love my life.