I suck.

So I am looking at all the post I have already wrte and not one thing I have done that I said I was going to do. No school, no big weight loss, no house no nothing. Instead I have lost like 5 pounds, we are moving into another apartment, and I dont have any plans to go to school cause of work and everything. The only thing I can say we are going to be doing is trying to have another baby in june. But what does that say for what I really wanted to do with my life. I wonder if I will ever be able to do something productive with my life.will I ever be proud of anything else beside being a mom. don't get me wrong that will always be the most thing I am proud of but I mean i want to say I finished high school, I went to college, I lost all the baby weight. will it ever happen?*sighs* well on a better not Isaac is a year and a half now. He is walking all the time but is still not talking. OH but he is sooo smart you can just see when he is thinking about doing something. He is always trying to do new things and learn how to do thing. He is brillants just like his daddy lol. He has his 18 month well check up appintment this wensday! I get so excited for the appointments to see how much he is growing and everything. He really is everything I will ever need. well I am off to bed. I am quite tired...crap never mind gotta stay up till 12 to pick up michael..what bull lol

I need some moto...motovation

I am not gonna lie I need some kind of kick start to get me want to diet again. I was doing good for a while and then I just kinda leaped off the diet cliff into a nice ply of reeses sticks. I really know I can do it. I know the reason why I want to but all that just doesnt seem to get me going...so what will? Maybe I should get a personal trainer. The last time I had one (very cute) I worked my butt off and looked really really good. I just wish they were not so damn expensive you know lol. But Michael did get me something to try to help. I swear that man really wants me to be skinny lol. He got me Just dance to which I have to tell you is way cooler then the first one. I think the dance moves are alot harder. I guess I will try a little harder.


One another note My child is offically walking. not just steping but walking ALL the time. I am so proud and I know that everyone says its over and im gonna have to chase him but I am excited for that. I was really worried that something was wrong with him because he was not walking nor is he talking. And as a mother Im sure everyone goes threw a point where they freak out about one thing or another. But hes finally walking and he even got his first owie on his chin from falling face forward while walking. He took it like a champ and I was soo proud lol. I think I just need that little spark from him walking to not freak out from every little think he is not doing. I dont want to spend my life wondering if he is keeping up with other little ones.




One other little thing that I am sooo happy to share is my sista sucka pants its PREGO!!! I am so freaking happy for her. I think that I wanted her to be pregnant more than she did lol. She is such and amazing momma that I knew she was ment to bring another little one in the world. I wish that I could be there with her because I failed to do some when she was pregnant with sara thanks to stupid ex bastard lol. But I will be there for the birth this time and to host her babyshower along with Isaac's 2nd birthday. I love it. congrats King family you deserve it. xoxo

new year..new me

Its hard to say new me cause in a way I want the outside of me to be new but I want to keep the person inside the old me. Does that make sense? Well once again I have not wrote here for a long time and therefore you have missed alot in the life of Angelina. My son for Instance has turned one and is now taking quite a few steps. Although he has not learned to talk he is slowly mastering the walking step by step. I worry sometimes that he is not picking up stuff fast enough and there for something is wrong. But I have been reassured from many people that ALL babies learn at there own time. ......OMG its quite.... sorry for the interuption but I have a special annoucement. Tonight I have decided to take away the "paci" for good My child has been crying for a little over an hour and he has finally fell silent. SUCESS!!!I guess one thing really does come right after the other.

So its a new year..2011... This year I have set to major resolutions for me. ! I plan on losing 50 pounds by may. That will be 10 pounds a months. I dont plan on doing this with a diet pill or any crazy diets. I am just going to make sure I eat good portions that are healthy and work out starting at 30 minutes every day to and hour a day. and so on a so forth. I hope..no I know that I can do this. Annd I am not doing this for anyone one else but me. I am tired of being out of breath when I play with my son. simple as that. the 2nd goal is to Stick to the budget that we made for ourselves to save for a house,wedding and for Isaac. This is probably going to be mroe hard then losing weight. Me and michael like spending money thats it. there is no nice way to put it. So in order to do this we both (me expecially) need to find some self control in the shopping department.

This year I plan on updating everyone with both resolutions and with the growth of my son. I hope that I do not bore you all and maybe just maybe I can inspire someone with there life to better it. lets be thankfull for a new year.

Wedding plans and weight loss..sound fun?

I went to hallmark the other day and looked at annoucement and such while my child was cooed and awwed by the hallmark people. I swear my child gets stopped every where! but thats the price a pay for making a adorable baby. ANYWAYSSS As i was saying I was looking at announcements and trying to figure out what I like. I want something simple with a little splash. So i have come up with some idea and actually found 4 I like in the 5 HUGE books I looked through. I know i am picky lol. And sense Michael decided he did not care I am up to it all by myself. I also headed to davids bridal and finally saw the front of the dress I have been dying to see and of course I love it. But all this in a way makes me very sad. I hate that my family (expecially my sister) is not here to help with all the planning. It feels weird doing it all by myself. But I do have some great help from my friends down here as well as my besty amber From cali =] I just wish Everyone lived closer to me.

In other news I need to start losing some serious weight so that I can look super hot for my wedding and trying on dress. Even though I want to lose weight (BAD) I am having a hard time getting motavated. I want to do it but the temptaions have been killing me. I think what I am going to try to do Is get a little note book and start writing down everything I eat to try and stay motavated. plus I am getting this little exercise machine from my babysitter. I think that will help to. I hope that once I get in a routine that I can focus and actually start losing weight. I am looking to lose around 40 pounds. Its not that hard right???!!!

ME time

So on wensday I had a little time to myself. I got off work and the babysitter still Had Isaac. I have never been by myself and done nothing for almost 2 years now. I always have someone with me or Isaac my little man. So Intially I called some friend but they were all busy doing there own stuff. soI dicided I would just go and get some coffee from startbucks and walk around. I did do this for a bit and wound up going to the Cinabistro which is a movie theater. And not just ANY movie theater I might say but the best one I have ever been to. the seats could fit 2 people. The service was great and it was nice to just sit there by myself and relax I laughed and it was just amazing. I love ME time!

AH HELL!!!!

I hate my knee. it hurts and it is preventing me from doing pretty much everything. why you ask???!!! because I slipped at work and I hurt it. I had to fill out an incident report and everything. Plus I had to get xrays which apparently showed that nothing was wrong. But why would me knee hurt if there was nothing wrong with it. Michael says its probably just a bad sprang. who knows ={ I have to go back to the doctor in 4 weeks.which 2 of those I will be out of work for. What a pain in the ass right!! about the only good thing that came out of this is that I get to spend 2 wonderful weeks with my adorable son! I love spending time with him.

In other news I just came back from my therapist appointment. I love going to these appointment to just vent and get everything I want out. But today she felt the need to talk about my ex Ryan. This subject is a very sore one. And I know you are suppose to talk about these things so that you can move on from it but it does not mean I have to like it. the whole thing just makes me want to punch things. I wish that I could just forget the whole thing you know. but it seems to follow me wherever I go!! I mean come on its been 2 years now. Does it ever end??

On a brighter note Isaac stood up by himself for a whole 5 second. it was very exciting. I can't believe he will be 1 in just 2 months time. I cant wait for him to start walking and everything. Its gonna be fun! well I am off to sit around and do nothing...oh joy

Promotion

About 3 days ago I am taking my break and Matt(one of the managers) tells me the top dog wants to talk to me on the phone. So i go in there and she starts telling me how great my personality and moral is and how the owners just loves me. And then proceeds to tell me I have been promoted to Hospitality manager and that I will be getting a 50 cent raise and a set schedual. I am feeling very good right now. I love that My happyness has gotten me somewhere but I am also sad that My happyness is rare that I got noticed so easly. When did people start being so mean to one another. or for that matter hating there job so much. I know that people say they work at McDonalds because its a job but I mean for 6 years??!!! then why dont you find something you love doing rather then something you hate and it reflects on other people. the job is not that hard. It fun,fast,and easy. It makes me sad that customer service has gone down so much latley.

In Isaac news. He is doing so good with eating real foods. He loves bananas and had mac and cheese the other day. He has 2 teeth coming in as well and has a mean bit. dont stick your hand in there lol. He also is pulling up on pretty much everything he can. I believe he will start cruising soon if not walking. He is growing up so fast. I miss the times when I could just hold him. Time went to fast.But thats life right??